Confession Time...

[rebness]

Ganked from saffronlie, who ganked it from therealycats, this fun meme that may make you hate me. Or make you paranoid. Eh.




I didn’t even think you liked me, let alone want to friend me… so that’s pretty cool.

I think that you think I'm cleverer than I really am. No, wait, I don't... but I do have a lot of faults and perhaps I don't let you see that.

We were what I'd call "close" once, and I'm really not sure what things were directed at me on your list, if any. I hate what happened and wish I could turn back the clock. I can't, so all I can do is do my best to be a true friend to you now.

I will always feel that no matter how good my writing gets, no matter how passionate or clever, it will always trail far behind yours.

I have a lot of respect for you and chatted to you quite frequently on a forum of old, because you are all clever and fun and stuff, and then you disappeared! That's okay... because we share love of a certain city. Damn but now you probably know who you are.

I was really wary of you years ago, because you seemed so smart and aloof and I felt inferior. Now I know you to be very political, euro-centric, and a great person to know. I'm happy to have you on my Friends list.

I couldn't believe how great you are in real life. You're funny and smart and humane, and my respect for you has tripled. I wish we lived nearer.

You're my bestest friend in the entire world, though at one time I came home and told my mum that what I wanted more than anything else was for you to die. I am going to miss you so much when I move away, which means you'd better come visit. *Shakes fist threatingly*

I think you have a killer sense of humour, and hidden depths of perception. I'm not sure why you find me funny, but, hey, I'll run with it.

You I didn't know very well at all up until a week ago or something. I have a new-found respect for you, and wish I had talked to you sooner. You make me laugh, and your loyalty to your friends and morals is humbling.

You scare me somewhat, but I feel like I can at least tread water because you like my writing. Ha!

You and I have always got on, from the moment we first started talking online. I've smacked you and shouted at you and threatened to keeeeeeel you, but you know I don't mean any of that.

Sometimes I feel I've disgraced myself in front of your eyes, that I come across as too angry or unforgiving on some matters.

I'd really like to meet you one day. I'd love to show you around the region where I live and take you for a drink.

I think you secretly understand why colour must be spelt with a U.

When I first came across you in the fandom, I was reluctant to start talking to you as you seemed so... untouchable, part of a writing elite. What I do find you to be now is honest, funny, intelligent and loyal. I wish we had started talking earlier!

I regret not meeting up with you in America. I would have loved to chat!

Your politics are an issue for me, but I enjoy your friendship, your wit, so I try to overlook that.

You’ve let me down in the past, but I would do anything for you. I think you know me better than I know myself sometimes.

When I first met you, I really didn’t think we’d get on. We hardly spoke at all. The next time I saw you, you were so funny and witty and warm that I raved on for days to someone else about what a great person you are.

Comments

[earthlydelight.livejournal.com]

Not a clue which one applies to me so it can't be the perceptive one.

[saffronlie.livejournal.com]

No idea. These things drive one insidiously mad.

[rebness.livejournal.com]

I thought the ones pertaining to you two were pretty obvious. *Knocks heads together*

Kelly-- no, yours definitely isn't the perceptive one.

[saffronlie.livejournal.com]

Well, that's the thing with these memes. Secretly we all wish we were the one whom the author loves the most and dread that we got the 'eh, who are you again?' one. If I'd been entirely honest with everyone then they would find themselves in my meme, but I haven't, and in some cases honesty has never even been possible... so I guess this meme is so popular because it lets people be honest as they might never be. Maybe.

[rebness.livejournal.com]

I suppose that's true. I didn't pick as many as twenty for my list-- more just concentrated on a few people. There are two there that relate to you, and neither are of the "who are you?" variety, and the "I once wished you would die" thing definitely isn't. Hee.

I know what you mean, though-- when I see the bad ones, I'm all, "erk... please don't let that be me."

[saffronlie.livejournal.com]

The week thing? I don't know what else.

*blinkblink*

[versailles-rose.livejournal.com]

Is moi the one you thought to be part of the writing elite of the fandom?

These things confuse me. Specially before 8a.m.

[rebness.livejournal.com]

No-- the week thing is literal. ;)

Re: *blinkblink*

[rebness.livejournal.com]

Maybe. :p

[earthlydelight.livejournal.com]

"I was really wary of you years ago, because you seemed so smart and aloof and I felt inferior. Now I know you to be very political, euro-centric, and a great person to know." Oh yeah, that's me all over.

[rebness.livejournal.com]

Apart from the bit where it isn't, cow-lover.

[earthlydelight.livejournal.com]

Oh oh found mine!

[therealycats.livejournal.com]

I think I have an idea...

[earthlydelight.livejournal.com]

Shouldn't you be stealing someones hub caps?

[saffronlie.livejournal.com]

Well, that's embarrassing. Forget my guessing; you can just tell me in three days. :p

[nyalko80.livejournal.com]

*sniffle* I love you Becky!

[rebness.livejournal.com]

Hee. I think you've worked out which one was you, then, Reb... ;)

[rebness.livejournal.com]

Shouldn't you be cow-tipping, or performing rituals in the countryside?

[josh1975.livejournal.com]

:) I found mine!

I know you don't mean any of it. And know that even though I call you Bitch Widget and am constantly trying to get you killed by rabid clowns that I honestly consider you an incredible friend and am unbelievable person!

Did I just get mushy? I meant FECK OFF BITCH WIDGET! DON'T GET HIT BY A BUS!!!

;)

[rebness.livejournal.com]

You never know if I'm just bluffing or not. It's embarrassing to say nice things to people if it's not anonymous! ;)

[rebness.livejournal.com]

You're absolutely insane, but then most of my friends are, so it's all good. ;)

[saffronlie.livejournal.com]

Bah! This I know.

[mesalina104.livejournal.com]

Am I in there??? I really doubt it... LOL... but anyways... I love you Becky!!! I owe you for me being here!!! *kiss*

[pigeongirl99.livejournal.com]

_So_ not going to ask if I'm there or not.... awkwardness if I'm not, and insanity and frustration on my part if I am.

Oh, no, the paranoia's not kicking in at all, thank you :)

[avariecaita.livejournal.com]

I know which is meant for me because you are not the mistress of disguise when it comes to a certain city of light ;) However, I wish the one about colour being spelled with a U was me ... it seems teh c00!

Next time I'm on your side of the world we should meet up and blibber over all the great published writers and hate the ones that have past their prime and are still trying to get us to buy their drivel. Someday, kids might do the same to us ;)

[earthlydelight.livejournal.com]

That's YOU?

Ok I don't which one I am again.

[rebness.livejournal.com]

You're on there, and it's one of the good ones. ;)

[pigeongirl99.livejournal.com]

Hmmmm...

Nope still no clue :)