rebness

I meant self-editing, sorry. The editing that you do all the time, from the first draft onwards, that lets you fine-tune your vision. As long as you have this fear of it coming out all wrong, then you'll block yourself completely, as you can see. Nothing will come out perfect the first time and you'll have to come to terms with that privately before you can move forward in your writing. I'm trying really hard not to sound snotty or bossy, but honest to God, I'm being sincere. I've seen others go through this similar kind of self-sabotage and it can be overcome.